Hello

[Hugo2]

First of all many thanks to Suzi for helping with my registration issue

Where to start?

Over the past few months I've been feeling more and more like I am suffering from depression - I completed the NHS mood assessment survery that states my anxiety is 20/21 and depression is 23/24!

Back in Feb I dropped out of a three year studying course (which I lost interest in) and returned full time to employment. This employment pays well but is pressurised, unrewarding and I am continuously asking myself is this all my life is worth? My wife's mother is suffering from cancer so I'm trying to be strong for her, I know I cannot speak to her about this as she already has enough to deal with! I have been off work this past week as I really don't want to leave the house. I have deleted all my social media accounts and really have no friends at all to speak to. I am wondering if making a doctors appointment would just be seen as troubling them?

More and more I find myself wondering what life would be like for others when I'm gone . . .