Picking up the pieces again *SU Trigger*

[Strugglingmum]

I didn't go to the centre today, I just didn't feel like being there.
However, I did get up and took the dog for a long walk on the shore. I feel it did me more good. It's very cold but bright and sunny and it definitely soothed me. I came back and ate some lunch, did the dishes and hung washing out. I'm going back to concentrating just on the basics, food, drink, rest, fresh air and just being.
My CPN helped me see i am going through a crisis phase and its ok to just do what I need to get through and ease my high expectations of myself. So I am trying to give myself permission to be 'ill' and take it easy instead of beating myself up for not achieving and getting frustrated and just making things worse.
Hubby spoke to my CPN but he didn't need to really, she saw for herself I was a bit of a mess. I feel more at peace with myself today (well so far).

[Paula]

I’m glad you’re trying to be kind to yourself, I know how difficult that is to do

[Mira]

Even if he might not have needed to talk to your CPN it might have done your husband some good too. It might be small but as a partner it does help to have a sense that you are helping. So that seems nice to me.

And I like how you are going to take care of yourself that way. If it were up to me you would have that permission in a heartbeat. So I hope you can give it to yourself as well

[Strugglingmum]

Even if he might not have needed to talk to your CPN it might have done your husband some good too. It might be small but as a partner it does help to have a sense that you are helping. So that seems nice to me.

And I like how you are going to take care of yourself that way. If it were up to me you would have that permission in a heartbeat. So I hope you can give it to yourself as well

thank you Mira. you are so wise. and kind.

[Suzi]

I am so proud of you! It's so hard to accept that "I'm ill and need to do the basics."

I'm glad that your Hubby was able to talk to her, it will have helped him to feel heard too...

[Mira]

How have the days been for you? I was wondering how you are doing.

[Suzi]

Are you being kind to you?

[Strugglingmum]

I have been doing the necessities.
I managed a swim yesterday.Today I did the ironing and washed my wee car.....in the rain. It was a necessity because hubby has it away to MOT..... I hope it passes.

Otherwise I am feeling the benefit from just giving myself permission to expect less of myself. My anxiety is a bit less.

[Suzi]

Hope the car passes, I hate it when mine goes in for her MOT..


I am SO proud of you for giving yourself that permission and that it's really helping.

[Strugglingmum]

Thank you. Delighted to say my car passed. Big relief.