Picking up the pieces again *SU Trigger*

[Suzi]

That post is awesome!!!!

[Strugglingmum]

I've been worrying terribly that my psychologist was really peeved at me for missing my appt last week. She had phoned and I didn't answer because I just couldn't. I had phoned her back and left a message for her that I was returning her call etc. She hadn't got back to me and i thought that I had completely blown it.
She has just phoned and said she was off and that was why she was only phoning me back now. I have an appt for next week so that is one worry off my mind a bit.
Now I just have to face my CPN on Friday. The closer it gets the more anxious I am about it.

[Suzi]

Oh love you must have been so worried! So glad that it's sorted.
Why are you worried about your CPN appointment?

[Strugglingmum]

I stopped my ADs as I felt they were making me worse. I had given them 3 months and was in a darker place on them than not. I feel a telling off is coming but I definitely feel a bit better since I stopped them.

[Suzi]

When did you stop them? Can I ask why you didn't see your Dr about stopping them?

[Strugglingmum]

I have no appt scheduled with my psychiatrist yet to have discussed it with him. My GP is great but would tell me to do nothing without seeing psychiatry as they are in charge of my care.By the time that happened I quite honestly wouldn't have been here.
I've been off them 2 weeks and although flashbacks are more numerous, my overall mood is slightly better.

[Strugglingmum]

This morning someone asked me to do a demonstration class that didn't suit me to do.
I said no!
I didn't feel a twinge of guilt or try to reorganised my life and my family's lives to try and make it suit.
I simply said, sorry that doesn't suit me, I can't.
A weird thing to be pleased about but it's a biggie for me.

[Jaquaia]

Well done!

[Suzi]

That's amazing! I'm so proud of you!

[Allalone]

That’s great!