Picking up the pieces again *SU Trigger*

[Suzi]

Hunni, do you and A normally not talk about things which are difficult?

[Strugglingmum]

Oh yes. We discuss any difficult topic about the kids, money, him etc, its just me. I clam up about me. But I guess that's because I learnt early on to keep everything about me secret.... especially my feelings and emotions and thoughts. I work things out in my head first and then talk. i guess i dont fully trust anybody.... even the person closest to me. But i understand why that is.

[Suzi]

So do I, but maybe you could start by breaking things down into bits - So maybe tell him you're changing meds.... Then tell him you have a diff diagnosis - you aren't able to explain it, but you wanted him to know that you are working through it etc?

[Strugglingmum]

He knows ive changed meds, i told him about that as he too had been concerned about the side effects I was having from the last ones. He's glad I've new ones to try and he knows that they are for people who haven't had improvement with the normal choice of drugs. I'm doing what my psychologist suggested for now and laying aside the diagnosis and all the turmoil associated with it and just concentrating on what I need to do to get through each day. I can pick it up when my mood is in a better place. She still maintains that when i have worked through my trauma that a lot of other thingscwill improve also and i can then pick up and work with what i need to do to stay well.

[Mira]

I hope that will happen too. And I think that will happen. That more will improve. Things are connected.

Reading about you watching christmas movies gives me a smile. I love them too

[Suzi]

You are amazing. You are working so hard. I'm so proud of you!

[OldMike]

A very positive post SMum just take it day by day and you'll get there.

[Strugglingmum]

Had an appointment with my CPN today. She said that she felt I looked better than the last time she saw me. My sleeping is a bit better so I think its helping me overall. I'm desperately trying to keep positive and keep a bit of hope that these new meds will help me.
Attended my floristry course today. Did a nice table arrangement for one of my assessment pieces. It worked out fairly well and i think its good enough for a pass. went for a swim this afternoon too.
Getting my hair done tomorrow which will be nice but means I won't swim. Hopefully I'll get a swim on Friday.

[Jaquaia]

I didn't really feel the benefit until I was on the top dose. Hopefully it will start kicking in soon for you

[Suzi]

You're doing amazingly well hunni... Keep talking to those around you.