Hello, i find myself struggling
At a young age i was jumped by a gang , had my jaw broke in 3 places and the mental issue came, i developed anxiety, depression, ptsd, short term memory loss and paranoia, i find myself at the stage where i ruin everything i touch and ruin relationships with everyone due to speaking before i think, i want to try harder and work on my problems but feel like i end up back at the start, i beat myself up over everything negative that i do or say, sadly my girlfriend has to oit up with everything and although she says shes more than happy to help i feel a burden and a factor that adds to her depression and anxiety when all i want is to make her happy and full of love and life , i really want to work on things but dont know where to start and find it hard talking to certain people