Hello
My name is Terry
Been scrolling the internet looking for somewhere to talk I suppose. Dont think im ready to sit in a room with a counsellor and poor my heart out its not really me. I do feel though that its time to at least sit at a computer and write down a few things that are bothering me and if someone happens to read it and maybe has some advice for me then thats great. Im not the best at talking about myself so not really sure what to say other than life feels hard sometimes and I feel like I should cope better than what I do. I hate being around lots of people and hate any kind of social gatherings which of course do crop up from time to time. I feel awkward and out of place and would just much rather be at home. I can handle small family get togethers as theres not as much pressure to act or be a certain way. Im married and have two grown up children my life has been good but something is missing maybe or not right I dont really know I just dont feel normal. I get anxious and nervous about all sorts of things I dont have much energy and lack motivation. I have been taking anti depressants on and off for years. Feel like im better so stop taking them then decide to give them another try.
Not really sure how to get out of this rut.