Those are tough moments for sure. In my family there are a few alcoholics. And I have heard all the stories of why they drink but they are addicted.

Sometimes I feel your father is being self destructive. And what you said about what if you had that attitude resonates with me. I have the same. If I said after seeing 3 therapists I am done who knows what would be of me now....

Its important to keep trying. Its a shame your father does not see that. And like you said there is so much to be around for. You did forget to mention yourself. So I am doing that now.

Its a shame there is so much negativty around you at home at the moment. But please dont feel bad about making uni a priority.