Hey, you’re quiet, what’s up?
Hey, you’re quiet, what’s up?
The purpose of life is not to be happy. It is to be useful, to be honorable, to be compassionate, to have it make some difference that you have lived and lived well.
I was with J all day yesterday. We went out for lunch, had a look at a second hand bookshop in the market place and watched GoT after his counselling session. Today I'm going for lunch with my best friend. Haven't seen him in person since we were both 21 so looking forward to that!
Other then that, I'm tired and it gets harder and harder to say goodbye to J. Needs must at the moment but it's hard.
Tên përdu, jhamâi së rëcôbro
Glad you spent the whole day. I wish you didn't have to say goodbye each time.
Hope you're having fun!
Do a little of something that makes you happy every day!
I'd forgotten just how loud he could be in person! Still, he brought books so I'll forgive him.gif "(giggle)")
I'm all peopled out now so resting. Trying to decide between Mr Darcy on a page and Mr Darcy on screen...
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Depends... How much do you want to shut out the rest of the world?
Do a little of something that makes you happy every day!
I've gone for the book as it was still in my bag from yesterday and finding the dvd feels like too much effort
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I can understand that!-.gif ")")
Do a little of something that makes you happy every day!
You've been quiet. How are you?
Honestly? I'm struggling. I've tried to ignore it as I'm not suicidal and I haven't felt like self-harming, but I'm struggling. I feel so numb and empty a lot of the time lately, incredibly lethargic. It's rare I'm asleep much past 7 and I'm often awake during the night, I'm struggling to focus on anything, and for the last few days I've been back on the propranolol as I'm highly agitated and anxious. I'm really irritable, hating being around the vast majority of people, and even being spoken to is a struggle most days. And to top that off, I had a bit of a moment today. Apart from being very insecure, we went for lunch in town and J pulled someone up who pushed in front of me at the cash machine. The guy reacted pretty aggressively and it triggered me massively as it reminded me of dickhead. I was almost in tears in the street, struggled to speak, and it took me an age to make eye contact with J again. He said my reaction surprised him.
So it's been fun...
Tên përdu, jhamâi së rëcôbro
Oh hunni!
Do you know where it's come from? Is the propranolol helping?
Do a little of something that makes you happy every day!
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