Whilst I haven't actually got a diagnosis I am pretty sure I am currently depressed. I have suffered from it in the past on a fairly low level but right now, and I guess for the last three or four years I think I have been depressed. People are telling me that I am.

Currently I am too much at a loss to deal with it. Admitting it would have profound implications for my relationship and my work (the job is not the most demanding and I am really just hanging on). From what I know, the loss of both is a possibility. At the moment I am really not sure about approaching my GP as I don't want it on my medical records. There seems a good chance that I am going to be out of work anyway and if I am going to get another job I don't really want this to follow me around.

Maybe I need to talk to someone. I have paid for counselling in the past but I am broke enough that feeding myself is a problem let alone anything else. Right here right now I don't know what to do. Anyone any ideas?