guess i'm the new girl *SU SH triggers*

[babybrown]

hello, feeling like a bit of a failure lol so came on here.

anxiety and trauma have pretty much shattered all my dreams and left me at a point where going outside isn't even worth the panic attacks anymore.

even the gp is fed up with me and my family don't get it.

i spent so much of my life trying to stay on the right path and do the right things to ensure a good future and i've ended up worse than i could have imagined.

i didn't mean to come on here and whine but that's the frustrating reality rn.

i don't know what i'm looking for on here tbh, maybe support but some days i'm not up to talking to anyone either so..

trying to deal with self-harm, daily suicidal thoughts and physical health issues atm and wondering what i'm fighting for.

i can easily tell other people why they should continue living but even therapists have told me if they were me they would kill themselves -_-

...anyway yeah. i hope my future interactions wont be this negative lolol