Hey guys

Im a 32 year old and ive been struggling with depression from around 16 so its a long time!

Last 8 or 9 years have been the worst!

I have no job or skills, no friends, no life outside my house!
I have epilepsy and although my main sezures are under control I still a lot of the time experiance other feelings not sure if they are sezures it never been proven.
I also have vertigo

I have a child he is 8 years old now, It sounds terrible but i have never been able to connect with him. I will do the main things mums should do, but was never able to really sit with him and play etc..


I found my house to be my tomb im so scared to go out and do anything... not that I have any money or anywhere to go. I know it doesnt feel right being stuck at home all day doing nothing.
I bottle everything up and put on this happy face like everything is great when inside its killing me bit by bit to act happy.

It just constantly feels like a big bubble im in where im alone.

I prob have more to say but never know how to say it or what to say. Just needed to say what i could.