Sometimes we need to take fairy steps and ignore any expectations of how we feel we should be.
Sometimes we need to take fairy steps and ignore any expectations of how we feel we should be.
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It feels like I’ve taken a step backwards though.
Just had a phone call from the home treatment team. I’m on daily visits for at least a week. They were asking questions about the kids too. I’m now panicking, do they think I’m a risk to them?
I’ve started scratching at a wound.
It's very much not a step backwards. It's a huge positive that actually you are asking for and receiving help! Sweetheart they won't think that, they are just asking - I've sat in many an appointment with my husband where they were asking more about the children, our cat, anything to get him to talk and to try to break down barriers.
If you are unsure then ask them lovely.... You are amazing. Keep fighting.
Do a little of something that makes you happy every day!
Feel like I’m losing the fight.
I’ve got so many things whizzing around in my head it feels like it could explode.
I’m now waiting on the sleeping tablet to kick in then I’ll get peace for a while.
Night.
It does feel like that some days, recovery isn't a straight line. Take things hour by hour if you need to
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Allalone (07-11-18)
Allalone, please know that you are not alone. I really do know where you are right now and how you're feeling....I've been there. It really does get better please believe that, even if its only with a tiny bit of belief, cling to it. It takes a while for meds to kick in but they will..... and there is loads out there to try. Getting sleep sorted is a big thing because it gives you a big of energy to fight what is going on in your head. Keep talking. X
Allalone (08-11-18)
It really isn't going to be like this forever lovely...
Do a little of something that makes you happy every day!
Not a great night.
Got a horrible headache this morning and so flat.
The purpose of life is not to be happy. It is to be useful, to be honorable, to be compassionate, to have it make some difference that you have lived and lived well.
I can’t get rid of these negative thoughts. I’ve really tried this morning. I’ve taken Ted for a short walk, got a chocolate and banana loaf in the oven but have self harmed as well.
I’m not sure what to do next.
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