Me, part 673 *TRIGGERS*

[Suzi]

Mira is spot on!
Ash treated you appalling! He doesn't deserve your thoughts and you have nothing to feel guilty about!!

[Mira]

How are you doing today? Are you ok?

[Jaquaia]

I'm just tired but just plodding through my uni work and listening to Cabin Pressure

[Paula]

Yet again, Ash proves why should not be with him. That is bullying, controlling behaviour and typical emotional abuse. Block him, please

[Jaquaia]

I hadn't thought of it in that respect before. I thought I would have picked up on it after dickhead

[Suzi]

Have you blocked him yet?

[Jaquaia]

I have.

[Suzi]

I'm really glad. You don't need that kind of bas*ard in your life love. You deserve to be happy and treated like a Princess...

[Jaquaia]

Sometimes I have to remind myself that what I have with J is real. Earlier for example, we were talking about the Holocaust as he was reading a book about the rail network in Nazi Germany (I know! Light reading for a sunday) and he was talking about how some railway workers asked to be transferred off the "resettlement" trains and he was saying the he couldn't understand why so many people let it happen so I told him about a study conducted just after the end of WW2 by Adorno et al. that looked at authoritarian personality and how those with an authoritarian personality had the potential for fascism if the political and social climates were right. I know that all sounds very academic, and I suppose it is, but it's the first time in so long where I can have a serious conversation and share my knowledge and intellect and not be shouted down as showing off or as my opinions are wrong and not important itms? With most others in my life, I tend to "dumb down" my vocabulary as it's easier than explaining what words mean or worrying that they'll think I'm a snob. He's the only person in my actual, physical, day to day life that I can fully be myself with

[Suzi]

I think that's pretty epic....