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[Joyful]

Hello, i am Joyful, I have been suffering from depression since i was about teen and am 27 years of age now. thoughts of suicide has always been occurring in my mind, on one occasion i was very close to committing suicide but i was accidentally stopped by my sister who didn't even know she just saved my life. Of late the thoughts have been getting stronger, i do not want to die..all my life iv been thought dose who commits suicide goes to hell i do not want to go to hell...and i do not want to continue like this...i am really tired of life this way...please i need help... things don't work well for me..i cant even secure a good job..am so feed up...