I am 50 and my son is 20. it just recently I look back and realized that I was not a good father and not there for my son. I wish I can go back but it's not possible. I have been struggling with depression all my life starting high school. I had struggled to take care of myself let alone my son.

I have trouble looking at my son's younger picture because it makes me cry and its so painful. I neglected him and was harsh on him. I regret it so much. I failed as a father I hate myself for it.

I had enough courage to tell my son and apologize. He forgave me.

But its still hurts and so painful. It hurts so much that I don't if I can move on

Thank you for reading.