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    partner of 18 yrs left - depression *SU Trigger*

    Patner of almost 18 years was diagnosed with depression a few months ago, is on medication and is seeing a councellor. I had no idea anything was wrong until he woke up one day and told me to leave and that he no longer wanted to be with me, no other explaination, just silent treatment so I left and went to stay with family, we kept in touch via whatsapp and after talking he said he felt the only way to deal with his derpession was to deal with it alone. we spoke of ways I could help when he felt that way, such as me sleeping in the spare room for a few days so he had some space etc, I ended up going back to him after i thought we had it figured out.

    When I got back everything seemed normal, we went for a weekend away, got back home and two days later he has done it again, literally woke up and told me to leave once again, he refused to talk it through just that he wanted to be on his own.

    He is saying stuff like he is empty and hollow inside and feels like pushing the people closest to him away. He has this huge need inside of him to be alone and go through all this himself. That he knows people care about him but caring is not going to help him. He feels dead inside. Feels like his brain is going 100 miles an hour with constant thoughts. He hates himself and thinks he is a bad person. Not sleeping much and when he does he wakes very early. Cant stop his mind from racing.

    He has deleted all his social media and interacts with nobody apart from having to go to work.

    I have tried to be as understanding as possible as i am aware it must be terrible going through depression but i also feel like how i feel means nothing. For example i asked him if i gave him time to try and feel better and get his head together with us living apart i am willing to do that because i do not want to lose him and i dont want to split up over him being ill. He says things like i will be better without him. That i will go on to meet someone else and be happy in time. That he will not agree to me waiting for him as he doesnt want to give me false hope.

    Is there a chance for us in the future if i give him time? I love and miss him so much.

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    Not "nagging" really... Suzi's Avatar
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    I'm so sorry that this has happened to you
    Is he still going to work? Are you worried for his safety?
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    That mean that yesterday or tomorrow I might be a better person,
    but today's best is more than good enough for today.

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    He is still going to work yes because he owns the house so needs to pay the mortgage. He has said he has bad thoughts like driving his car into a wall etc but said they are just thoughts and he woukdnt do anything like that.

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    Not "nagging" really... Suzi's Avatar
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    Have you had any contact with him at all?
    Today I aim to be the best person I can be.
    That mean that yesterday or tomorrow I might be a better person,
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    Princess Sparkles Paula's Avatar
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    Hi and welcome. Iíve added a trigger warning to your thread, itís not a problem, itís just to make sure members are able to avoid threads they may find difficult.

    I donít know if itís reassuring to you or otherwise but the things your partnerís feeling are pretty common, and I know I feel that way when Iím in crisis. Itís sort of like all your emotions are put on mute and youíre watching the film of your life without audio and itís hard to immerse yourself in it itms. I know in my head I knew I loved my husband but felt very little and it felt like he was better off without me. Of course he isnít and he means everything to me and Iím so glad I didnít leave the first time I felt like that, but itís so hard to argue with depression ...

    Give him some space, lovely, but let him know you love him still and are there for him.
    Sometimes the best thing you can do is not think, not wonder, not imagine, not obsess. Just breathe and have faith that everything will work out for the best.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Suzi View Post
    Have you had any contact with him at all?
    The only contact we have at the moment is via whatsapp. It doesnt help that i am now over 100 miles away with family so i cant just go and see him.

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    Hi mysmm can't really add much to what Paula and Suzi have said but one of the symptoms of depression is wanting to be alone and pushing people away.
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    Quote Originally Posted by mysmm View Post
    The only contact we have at the moment is via whatsapp. It doesnt help that i am now over 100 miles away with family so i cant just go and see him.
    If you genuinely think he is at risk of hurting himself or worse, then you can always ask the local police to do a welfare check - it's not the same, but it is an option if you are scared for him.
    I'm glad you have whatsapp contact.
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    Quote Originally Posted by OldMike View Post
    Hi mysmm can't really add much to what Paula and Suzi have said but one of the symptoms of depression is wanting to be alone and pushing people away.
    Will he feel this way forever? As in, will his feelings of wanting to be alone go away in tine as he learns to manage his depression?

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    Princess Sparkles Paula's Avatar
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    There are no definitive with this illness but as he recovers, this symptom along with the others, should improve.
    Sometimes the best thing you can do is not think, not wonder, not imagine, not obsess. Just breathe and have faith that everything will work out for the best.

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