Hi all.
Haven't been posting for a while.
I feel nothing is changing and I will always be afraid of life. Eveything feels incredible hard (from going shopping to cooking to looking after myself). I am seeing my therapist once a week and I talk about how I feel stuck. I know I need to be patient. But everyday I ask myself what's the point? (To assure you I am not suicidal). I just wish I was never born. I don't know how to stop the overthinking and worrying all the time - am I capable to do my job, what do people think of me, how do I come across, do people like me. I often feel like the third wheel. I know, it's mostly in my head. Knowing it's ridiculous and those are no real problems make it really hard talking about how feel.