It’s not a factor at the moment. But this break up has hit me harder than I expected.....luckily that shouldn’t be a factor for a few weeks otherwise I might have been worse. The wanting to not wake up thoughts hit me again last night but I haven’t been out of an evening since it all happened. A friend has invited me round tonight for tea, so I am going as much as I don’t want to. She knows how I’m feeling so hopefully will be ok.

I’m trying so hard to not sink further into this as I feel stupid but maybe I didn’t realise how much of myself I’d given to him, not at all his fault, and maybe that’s why I’m feeling like such a failure......

All ramblings again today guys apologies for that.

Hope you are all doing well and coping with the weather