I've had some meetings about improving my work performance, but I still doubt I'll be able to manage the workload satisfactorily. The place was half closed today and somehow the list has shot up in length from about 20 items to 30. I'm told there are people I can ask for advice, but I need physical help getting things done.

I've been applying for other jobs and I have an interview on Monday. It'd be great to have a job with a reasonable workload, but I've been laying awake in bed until gone 1am just crying over not seeing some of my colleagues again. I just hope this doesn't manifest itself during the interview or at any point at my new job should I be successfully appointed.