Short introduction about myself, I'm Fred 55 and from Portsmouth. Seem to be going round this circle of depression, one moment I think I'm ok the next I just don't want to wake up.

Had I few counselling sessions over the last few years and again at the end of the course I think I've sorted my issues, then bang a little later back they come. I think the dark cloud is far away and I'll spot in coming, but then it's right back over me.

I'm on sertraline 150mg a day and started counselling again and going to a mindfulness group once a week, and been signed off work.

Not sure why half the time I feel the way I do, and why I feel like I'm pushing my finger down on the self destruct button.

Right better stop there for now.