Hi,
I have been on 20 mg of fluoxetine for about three months, and after the initial side effects faded I began to notice such a big difference. After many years of feeling very little, and then due to a traumatic event becoming very, very down, I was beginning to feel normal things again! I felt happy, I felt sad, I felt angry, all these things I hadn't really been feeling for I don't know how long. I thought now my journey would be learning how to handle all these emotions!

However, when my second box of medication was coming to an end I was having trouble getting my repeat prescription and had to go some days without my meds. I ended up having a bit of a breakdown at work with my boss which wasn't pretty, and was feeling like I just wanted to ram raid the pharmacy with my car to get my meds!! (Wouldnt actually do that of course!)

Thankfully I got hold of my meds and now back on them as normal. However, I'm not feeling as stable as I was before. Today I had a particularly bad day where the negative thoughts were creeping back in, the extreme sense of sadness for no real reason at all. My house mate (also my boss!) was pestering me as to what's wrong, in the end I had to text him and admit its the depression which I just find embaressing becuase it's something he really doesn't understand. I know, I know I shouldn't be ashamed but don't want to seem like I'm being a downer on a Saturday night!

Anyways, I am wondering if its just where the meds werent in my system for a few days, do I just need to wait for them to kick back in? Should I perhaps consider going on to something stronger? Ive been popping a couple of pills a day recently becuase I felt like I needed the extra boost. Or I read someone say in another post about different brands making a difference, and every time I've got my meds they're been in a different box so could some be less effective than others?

Thanks in advance. I've just had a promotion at work and am going to be managing a shop of my own next week, so I want to get this under control, I want to do well in my new job and not have this get in the way.