Job is making me feel suicidal *SU TRIGGERS*

[Scottie M]

Hi guys, I'm new to this forum and I'm looking for advice.

I currently work at a local superstore and even just thinking about going to work is making me feel suicidal. I live with my partner and not long given birth to twins, who are 5 months old now. I was meant to be at work yesterday, but couldn't do it as I was contemplating taking my own life.. But I'm afraid of quitting as I won't have a secure income. There's nothing about the job I enjoy and I'm afraid that soon it might be my last day alive. What do I do? Is it worth staying in a job that could potentially kill me? I'm currently on medication (Sertraline 50mg) but see no improvements. I can't live feeling like this much longer.

Any advice would be amazing,

Thanks!