Hey all, so this is hard isn't it? I've typed out a hundred posts recently but deleted them all because they but sound stupid!
I've lived with depression for 20+ years and I still don't understand it one bit.
Why can't I deal with problems the same way as others? Why do I hide who I am? Why, even though I'm taking medication do I find some days such a struggle?
I'm a mum, a wife, I work full time, own a home, and have some lovely friends and I am really grateful for it all but I want to feel it like a normal person, not go into meltdown because I'm ashamed I can't keep things tidy, or freak out at the thought of people coming into my home, and go into total free fall when I've missed a bill payment and am terrified at th he though of actually having to deal with it. Why can't I deal with it??