Hi all, I'm new here. I don't know where to begin, I just need to get this out right now.

My current situation is that I get up in the middle of the day, maybe waste some time online and then around 7pm start drinking and carry on until I go to bed around 3 or 4am. I feel so useless, I'm absolutely sick of my "life" but I feel like I haven't got the strength to change it. I honestly wish I'd never been born sometimes.