General musings and random ramblings *TRIGGERS*

[Jaquaia]

I'll live. I always get through.

[magie06]

You are up early?

[Jaquaia]

I've been awake before 5am pretty much every day this week. Didn't fall asleep til almost 2am either.

[magie06]

I'm the opposite. I've no problem getting to sleep about 11.30 or 12 but I've been awake since 3.23. Can't sleep. Too many thoughts going through my head. Every time I close my eyes all I can see is the inside of the hospital. The doors locked and no way out.

[Jaquaia]

It's understandable you feeling like that. We're all behind you

[magie06]

I've a phone call from the MH nurse later. I don't know what to tell her. If I tell her the truth, then for sure I'm going to have to go to be assessed. But if I don't tell her what chance have I of getting better?

[Suzi]

How are you Jaq?

Magie - I'm going to reply on your thread as I have a few thoughts to share...

[Jaquaia]

At the moment I'm feeling empty but I'll take that over suicidal any day.

[Suzi]

Absolutely - have you been keeping track of your moods so you can show them? When is your appointment?

[Jaquaia]

16th feb. Been posting it on here. Just need to write it all out.