General musings and random ramblings *TRIGGERS*

[Suzi]

Can you do the background reading for your course?

[Jaquaia]

I've done the background reading. I need to start getting words down or I'm going to fail. But then there's nothing new there is there. I fail at almost everything I try to do.

[OldMike]

So NOT true Jaq I've every faith in you, you're struggling with the change in meds at the moment and but I'm sure you're trying your hardest and who can ask for more.

[magie06]

Maybe at almost everything BUT not everything. You probably need the rest. How is the sleep going? Are you getting more than 5 hours?

[Suzi]

I completely agree with the others - you do not fail at everything at all. You're dealing with a really hard time atm and the relief of someone listening is immense and certainly not something to be dismissed.
Stop putting so much pressure on yourself. You'll get it all done, but maybe not all this week - email your tutor and explain if you need to.

[Paula]

Fail? You? No, not in the slightest.

[Jaquaia]

I am just struggling so much with just surviving at the moment. I suppose I'm in crisis. If I actually admitted even half of what is going on in my head then it would upset people. And before anyone suggests counselling again, I've been told that I can't have any while I'm under the secondary team.

[Suzi]

What about the crisis team? Are you safe?

[Jaquaia]

I'm safe, just. My parents have picked up on me not being well so seem to be keeping an eye on me, or my mum does anyway. I've just been so jumpy and agitated today

I'm not getting very far with this essay at all. With incredible timing, J rang just as I finally cracked and started crying. He's made me email my tutor again and tell him just how much I'm struggling at the moment and has asked me to put everything away soon and get some rest.

[Angie]

I'm liking J more and more xx