General musings and random ramblings *TRIGGERS*

[Paula]

Being discharged is a good thing, it means you’ve come a long way, it’s hard to see when you’re in the middle of it but you’ve found new, better ways of dealing with the illness and the challenges it puts on you. However, being discharged is also scary and means you don’t have that safety net anymore. It’s hard to deal with the changes but I have total faith in you

[Jaquaia]

That's just it, I'm getting discharged because he can't keep me on his books while they wait and see if the new AD works. It's nothing to do with dealing with things better, it's purely a numbers thing and that is what scares me so much. If these don't work then the next step is a mood stabiliser but they can only be prescribed by a specialist. How much more fighting will I have to do to see someone who will actually prescribe them as my GP can't.

[Suzi]

So how do you get back to them if you need something else? Another long referral wait? Can he not give you an open appointment?

[Jaquaia]

I have no idea. I was so overwhelmed that he thought there was merit in looking at my treatment that I didn't think to ask.

[Suzi]

Can you ask on Friday?

[Jaquaia]

I can. I'm not sure if I can face going down the assessment route again.

[Suzi]

You can if you have to, so let's not worry too much now lovely....

[Jaquaia]

At the moment, everything is worrying me. Next week is a huge issue for me right now.

[Paula]

In my experience, no gp will prescribe new mood stabilisers but they will continue with repeats. Just tell him you’re worried about assessment and ask if he could make a note on your file to suggest straight to him for future issues

[Jaquaia]

I'm just so tired yet my head is racing. J bollocked me earlier because I called half 6 a lie-in. What I didn't tell him is I was still awake at half 1.