General musings and random ramblings *TRIGGERS*

[Jaquaia]

I feel like I can breathe a bit, though still very on edge. Now just got to get through the week! Injection and bra fitting tomorrow, weightwise appointment weds, doctors thurs and nurse prescriber friday!

[Angie]

Glad that you are sorted with the tutor hunni, you have a busy week please try and pace

[magie06]

Can you do some resting in between all of those jobs?

[Suzi]

I agree, make sure you schedule some "Jaq Time"

[Jaquaia]

I need to study so will rest when I can. My extension is only until Monday and it's a bigger piece of work. Though I am spending some time with J this afternoon, he needs so many hugs

[magie06]

And thankfully hugs work both ways! Good luck with your study and paper this week and don't forget we are all behind you.

[Suzi]

How you doing babe?

[Jaquaia]

Not good. It's brilliant when J is here as I can completely drop my guard but it's getting harder and harder when he goes. My dad has been drinking all afternoon and after a lovely couple of hours with J, I'm finding it much harder to handle then I normally would.

[Suzi]

Does your Dad have an issue with alcohol?
Sorry it's so crappy love. Can you distract/do something different to drown him out?

[Jaquaia]

I suspect there's a bit of an issue there. I've told J tonight that when things are settled, I refuse to have beer in the house for when my dad visits. My sister and brother both make sure they have it in for him but I don't want to and he's completely behind me. I've even told my mum that when I marry (though she has no idea that there's someone who wants that job! ) that I don't want him drinking before he walks me down the aisle. One or 2 I can live with, but if he goes overboard then I don't want him giving me away, that's how strongly I feel about it.