General musings and random ramblings *TRIGGERS*

[Paula]

Morning, sweetheart

[Jaquaia]

I'm not great. I got myself in trouble last night with J over something I said and he's taken charge a bit today. I've only showered because he told me to, and I have to admit that it's made me feel a little better as my skin doesn't feel like it's crawling. It's weird, but even though I can't see him today, he still manages to make me feel loved and looked after. I just don't think I'm worthy of it.

Just still working on the eating part...

[Suzi]

What happened last night? And you are VERY MUCH worth it.

[Flo]

Oh dear!....did you tell him that you don't think you're worthy of his love and affection?

[Jaquaia]

I called myself a not very nice name which he took exception too. He's told me in no uncertain terms that he is not having me, or anyone else for that matter, speaking so badly about myself.

Oh dear!....did you tell him that you don't think you're worthy of his love and affection?

I did. He simply told me how much I mean to him and I'm just poorly at the moment and in need of some extra TLC. He really is amazing.

[Paula]

Oh hunni, I wish you could see what we all see in you

[Jaquaia]

I'm really trying but I'm failing miserably. It's like my head is full of voices whispering about how awful I am and pointing out all my flaws, those thoughts are relentless and I can't quiet them right now.

[S deleted]

So don’t try to shut them up. Treat it as someone else’s opinion. They’re entitled to it but doesn’t make it right.

[Jaquaia]

That never really works for me as I take far too much to heart.

[smelly_steph]

you're like me too.

take way too much to heart