General musings and random ramblings *TRIGGERS*

[Jaquaia]

It's just exhausting fighting all the time.

I've got my next appointment. I go see him again on the 4th of May

[Suzi]

I know it's hard love, but we're here to help you to keep fighting.

[Jaquaia]

I think I need a lot of help some days

[Paula]

We all do, sweetheart, at times. It’s ok to lean on us when you need to - that’s what friends are for

[Jaquaia]

I struggle getting past the feeling that I'm a burden. I never seem to have many good days, I'm not able to give much support here recently, and I'm very conscious of taking more than I give. Even with J, I feel guilty for being so low so often. I feel like I'm just extra grief for him that he can do without. I think most people can do without me really.

[S deleted]

Ahem. I can say hand on heart that I want and need you and the support you’ve given me recently goes above and beyond. I’m not trying to blow smoke up your ass cos I would never do that. Despite your own problems you’ve been there for me so many times and I could never see you as a burden, only a blessing.

[Paula]

Stella’s absolutely right. You give massive amounts of support here and to the people you care about - no matter how bad you’re feeling. You are not a burden and, with J, if he didn’t want to look after you when you’re struggling, he wouldn’t.

I have huge amounts of respect for you

[Jaquaia]

I guess that's me told!!!

[Suzi]

A burden? You? To us? Never. You could never be a burden. We're friends - if it was the other way round (and I often feel like a burden so I do understand) what would you be saying to me/us?
You need support atm? So? What about all the times you've told me that you're more than happy to support me when I've needed it? Have some hugs, , love and understanding.
I promise if you ever get to be a burden I'll be the first person to tell you.....

[Jaquaia]

I know that I would tell you exactly what you're telling me, I just don't think I'm as important.