I walk Talia when I can. Like I said, where I live sends my anxiety through the roof and I'm constantly looking over my shoulder when I'm out. No idea what meetup or spice are. Never heard of them. Different? Like what? Going places on my own places me on the edge of panic. I get very paranoid and very agitated and anxious and I spend the next few days exhausted. So it's trying to find a balance between loneliness or being terrified. At the moment, loneliness is the lesser of 2 evils.
My mum says she's trying to have a joke with me and I'm being oversensitive.