ophelia's room TRIGGERS

[Suzi]

I don't think it's wasted. I've enjoyed having the chance to get to know you a little.

[Paula]

How old are you? (roughly, you do t have to be specific if you don’t want)

[ophelia]

I don't think it's wasted. I've enjoyed having the chance to get to know you a little.

thanks, suzy. that's the nicest thing said to me for, well.. a long time. I really apreciate that. maybe we can get to know each other some more

paula, to give you a rough idea of how old I am, I was born in the 1980's so not that old

[Paula]

Ok, so life isn’t a fairytale. For anyone. I’ve been through some pretty traumatic stuff (worse than some, not as bad as others) and there were times when I thought like you. That my life was a waste and that there was no real future ahead of me. The only difference between you and me is time - I’ve had time to adjust to what’s gone wrong, had time to forgive myself and to stop beating myself up. And I’ve had time to listen to my friends here, who all understand and empathise, and, with their support, dust myself off and make a life that isn’t what I thought it would be, but is still a good life. Not a fairytale but I’m happy.

Give us time to help you, lovely, your life will change for the better

[Suzi]

thanks, suzy. that's the nicest thing said to me for, well.. a long time. I really apreciate that. maybe we can get to know each other some more

paula, to give you a rough idea of how old I am, I was born in the 1980's so not that old

We're somewhere roughly not so different in age give or take about 10 years lol...
You seem like a lovely, sociable, lively, intelligent lady and I am sure that there is so much happiness in store for you..

[ophelia]

Ok, so life isn’t a fairytale. For anyone. I’ve been through some pretty traumatic stuff (worse than some, not as bad as others) and there were times when I thought like you. That my life was a waste and that there was no real future ahead of me. The only difference between you and me is time - I’ve had time to adjust to what’s gone wrong, had time to forgive myself and to stop beating myself up. And I’ve had time to listen to my friends here, who all understand and empathise, and, with their support, dust myself off and make a life that isn’t what I thought it would be, but is still a good life. Not a fairytale but I’m happy.

Give us time to help you, lovely, your life will change for the better

it's true lives can change, sure, and I am so glad for you that your life is a happy one

I don't think mine can, to be honest

not because of the depression and stuff gone on, but because of emotional pain threshhold

I'm sure you'd agree with me that we all handle pain diffrently and some can take more than others (emotional pain this is)
reasons people may want to commit suicide is a good example of this.

some people's reasons for wanting to commit suicide may seem trivial to others, but a lot to them

same in reverse

[Suzi]

Are you seeing anyone for counselling - sorry if you've already answered - it's hard keeping track of all the members both here and the Facebook page...

[ophelia]

Are you seeing anyone for counselling - sorry if you've already answered - it's hard keeping track of all the members both here and the Facebook page...

I have a weekly therapy on friday afternoon for about an hour or so.

helpfull?

sometimes

more often though I feel I'm not getting much from it

[Suzi]

Is it cbt? Or a different type of therapy?

[Paula]

There is nothing trivial about wanting to commit suicide, for people I talk to, people I care about or for myself. I know about emotional pain, Ophelia, I promise you that. That’s my point, I have been at the very depths of the black pit many times and will probably be there again in the future - that’s not defeatist, just a fact of my illness. I have had two options, and I chose to live and to live as well as I could. Please believe me, I do not take your illness lightly, nor do I think it’s a walk in the park and you can click your fingers and all will Be well. So if I gave that impression, I’m sorry. But I do believe that you can have a life, I do believe you can be happy - maybe not 100% of the time - but you can be happy. I want you to have that opportunity. I want you to be happy.