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    Foxtail87
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    Contemplating a doctor visit *SU*

    Hello - I am new here

    It's been a very long time since I last considered professional help but I no longer know where to turn. I've felt miserable for as long as I can remember but at least coped to a degree.

    It's all very scary right now; dwelling on stuff incessantly and attempting to curb my thoughts away from nasty things with limited success.

    I genuinely feel like I am edging closer to the edge and I don't know what will happen when I get there. The last time things got this bad I opted for an exit strategy and left many people, who I love dearly, terribly hurt and worried. I'd like to think that I wouldn't go that far again, but this time around it's even worse. The worst I've ever felt in my life. Why can't I just function? Why is my brain so corrupted?

    I think it's a wise idea to speak to my GP... I know they will likely throw some pills at me but that has never worked. If I truly put across how desperate I am I'm worried that they'll section me and I can't have that

    I know things are beginning to turn savage like before as I had to take a break at work and go for a stroll in the freezingness. Anxiety, hopelessness and grief intensified to a state of panic. I start hearing whispers in my head and everything gets fuzzy; static in my ears, my stomach in knots, trembling all over. Deeply unpleasant.

    It's a horrible thing to say, let alone feel, but I sincerely hope that I don't wake up tomorrow morning.

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    Librarian and chief holder of antiquities and biscuits Jaquaia's Avatar
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    Hi and welcome. It definitely sounds like seeing a gp will be a good idea. There are quite a few different ADs they can try you on, with a lot of people it's a case of trial and error to find one, or even a combination that helps. They can also refer you to a specialist or for counselling.
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    Princess Sparkles Paula's Avatar
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    A visit to the doctor is the only way you can fully access help and support so please, please make an urgent appointment. If you can’t get to the doctors straight away and youre in danger, please get yourself to hospital and/or call Samaritans (if you’re in uk or Ireland) or one 9f the worldwide helplines available - we’ve listed those helplines http://www.dealingwithdepression.co....ness-Worldwide and http://www.dealingwithdepression.co....UK-amp-Ireland

    Please tell your friends and family how you’re feeling and accept the support they can give you. I’d hope, from the way they reacted before, that you know they love you and want to help you
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    To be honest the idea of dragging other people into my mess isn't appealing at all : / Things are quite stressful at home right now as it is, the last I want to do is add to that.

    I plan on making an appt tomorrow evening after work but I'm not optimistic and I don't know what to say. All I can do for now is try to sleep.

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    Princess Sparkles Paula's Avatar
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    Can I suggest you print out the posts you’ve made here to give to your doctor? It will help start the conversation
    The purpose of life is not to be happy. It is to be useful, to be honorable, to be compassionate, to have it make some difference that you have lived and lived well.

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    Paula - that is actually a good idea. Thank you.

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    It occasionally happens
    The purpose of life is not to be happy. It is to be useful, to be honorable, to be compassionate, to have it make some difference that you have lived and lived well.

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    Boss Lady ;) Suzi's Avatar
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    Paula often has great ideas - don't let her modesty put you off!

    Definitely print out your posts and take them with you - or you can just write out a bullet point list.
    Why don't you want to talk to anyone around you about how you are feeling?
    Do a little of something that makes you happy every day!


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    Foxtail87
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    Quote Originally Posted by Suzi View Post
    Why don't you want to talk to anyone around you about how you are feeling?
    It's extremely difficult. I wish I wasn't living at home - too much front and falseness. I suppose it's good in a way because it lessons the potential of doing something very stupid, but makes it harder overall. On separate occasions since Saturday I have dismantled and immediately threw away 2 disposable razors; it's as bad as it can get in that regard. Were I on my own I would've probably put myself in A&E by this point.

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    I'm glad you threw them away. I promise you that making that decision to hurt yourself isn't the best way to deal with what is a temporary situation. You can get through this.
    Do a little of something that makes you happy every day!


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