Venturing out of the dark *TRIGGERS*

[Jaquaia]

Today has been crap. I should have just stayed in bed.

[Paula]

I'm sorry, lovely

[Suzi]

Why love? Why was it so bad? How are you doing today?

[Jaquaia]

I got up early as I had an appointment for my hair cutting except it was cancelled after we set off. Doctors was ok, he checked how I was doing with the paroxetine, he's logged my strange mood and I'm going back on the tablet that helped my alopecia. Then I was at hospital with my mum, 1 hour sat in physio since we got there stupidly early then an hours appointment. She's got allsorts to help her which knowing her, will end up in a drawer with crap excuses as to why she can't use it! Plus I had someone have a huge go at me about something that was beyond my control. So it was just stress, aggro and wanting to hide.

Today isn't much better. I'm irritable, I feel like I'm wading through treacle, my hands have flared, I'm pretty much wishing that I never woke up.

[Paula]

I'm not surprised you feel crap and pain has flared given yesterday. Are you resting?

[Jaquaia]

I'm trying to. Had the shopping to sort out and washed the pots but not felt up to doing anything else.

[Suzi]

Then I hope you are resting and being kind to yourself?

[Angie]

Please rest up hunni its been a busy time for you x

[Jaquaia]

Not going to lie, I've been struggling and just not seen the point in posting more of the same. I feel like I'm treading water in treacle, it's bloody exhausting! Although it does help to be able to admit that

[S deleted]

No shame in admitting it. You've got a lot on your plate with the med change and physical health issues, looking after your mum etc. The one thing I truly love about you is that no matter how bad things are, you always pull through.