Venturing out of the dark *TRIGGERS*

[Suzi]

Wow, you've been so busy. I hope you do leave the gingerbread hunnipie x

[Jaquaia]

You are very welcome Mike!

I am going to Suzi, just iced the cakes and it's started my hands off so just going to finish off the peppermints and leave it at that

[magie06]

Are your feet up now Jaquaia? I hope that they are and you are enjoying a nice cold drink.

[Jaquaia]

I'm resting now. Just waiting for tea to arrive and then disappearing again as my dad is slurring so has been drinking a lot AGAIN!!!! I've been watching Line of Duty and really getting in to it.

[Angie]

Hope that your now chilling out hunni x

[Jaquaia]

I have been. Watched some more of Line of Duty and just had a quick shower. Spoken to J a bit, and ended up telling him exactly what dickhead did to me. The subject came up because dickhead has set up another fb account and messaged me. He says he misses talking to me and wants to help me pay off the debt. That's really thrown me and set my anxiety off a bit. But I think I'm going to go with my gut reaction; that I'd rather struggle and pay off the debt on my own, rather then have anything to do with him again.

[Suzi]

I loved Line of duty!

Maybe you should let him, but I also wouldn't want him to either....

[Jaquaia]

Letting him would mean letting him back into my life. I don't really want that, even if it means paying it all myself.

[Angie]

Hunni am going to play devil's advocate but are you sure thats not just him trying to get back into your life rather than help?

[Jaquaia]

That's what I'm thinking. I don't trust him as far as I can throw him.