Venturing out of the dark *TRIGGERS*

[Jaquaia]

I'm feeling a lot calmer now I've seen J. We've had a giggle, talked about a few things and he's given lots of hugs. We're even planning on a night out in York next May! The Bluetones are playing in York and he's offered to go with me as I've wanted to see them live since I was 18

[Suzi]

lovely, hope today has brightened up a little....

[Jaquaia]

It's a lot brighter

[Suzi]

Good

[magie06]

How are things? You've been quiet over the last couple of days.

[Jaquaia]

I've had a rough few days but having no side effects from the dosage increase so far, which is good. J has just left and seeing him again on Friday, which I'm looking forward to already. Apart from when I'm with him I feel numb or irritable, he has a very calming effect on me.
Almost finished my Christmas shopping and it's all wrapped too apart from a couple that need gift bags. Had an appointment this morning with the weightloss team and even I could tell how dead my voice sounded and absolutely dreading my appointment tomorrow.

[Paula]

[magie06]

[Suzi]

Oh lovely I am sorry you're not feeling great between seeing J - that worries me that your mood is so linked to him..... Can you keep an eye on it and keep it marked in your mood diary?

[Jaquaia]

I don't think it's so much linked to him, more that he makes me forget when I'm feeling rough. Sometimes a hug makes all the difference and other then my niece, he's the only person I can really stand hugging me.

The last few days haven't been helped by broken sleep, the worry of the weightwise appointment today after how the last one went, dreading my smear tomorrow, my mum not really listening to me, (I mean how many times can I say I aren't a fan of minted lamb???) my sis making constant digs at my mum and upsetting her, and I've noticed signs of her being awkward with me too!