Venturing out of the dark *TRIGGERS*

[Jaquaia]

My dad would only make it himself again and then I'd feel bad so I might as well just suck it up and do it.

At the docs with my mum this morning, already running 20 mins behind! And hospital this afternoon. I already feel exhausted.

[magie06]

You have a very busy day there. I hope you have resting pencilled in too.

[Jaquaia]

I feel absolutely shattered. Been at the hospital most of the afternoon with my mum. The rheumatology nurse was running late then the appointment took ages because she had to check things with the consultant. Then I had to take her to have steroid injections in her wrist, then up a floor for a chest x-ray. I did manage to fit in a phone call with J after his counselling session, which was nice! But I think I've pretty much reached my limit today.

[Paula]

Then I hope tomorrow is a rest day. Please, hunni

[Jaquaia]

I had to really concentrate to do my mums meds for the next week.

Not completely Paula. I have counselling in town and then I'm meeting J after he finishes work. I have strict orders from him that I'm to go sit in a warm coffee shop and relax and maybe write while he finishes.

[Suzi]

Sounds like he wants the best for you lovely. Sorry it was a tough day. Make sure you are kind to yourself tonight.

[Jaquaia]

He does, it's part of what I love about him, he's more concerned about me then he is himself and will do everything he can to make sure I'm ok.

I just about managed a shower! I should get dried and blow dry my hair but it all feels like too much effort right now.

[Suzi]

Sod the blow drying... Get some rest!

[Jaquaia]

It's done now. It would just annoy me if I didn't do it. I think I'm well out of spoons now, having to argue with my mum at the hospital over how much she's smoking certainly didn't help.

[Suzi]

Oh that must have been horrible!