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    New Recovery thread

    I thought it was about time that I wrote a recovery thread. I am now in the recovery area. I'm still on a battery of mess and it is questionable whether I will be able to come off them. I'm working and managing a social life ( sort of)
    As most people who have suffered from depression know recovery is not a straight line. It can dip up and down. These days I have adopted certain strategies to deal with the peaks in my mood. I know that early mornings can be a 'low time ' so I have my coffee and porridge whilst I do my early morning chores. Sunlight is important especially when I am driving to work especially the weak sun across the fields. If I have any negatives thoughts during the day I try to challenge them and replace a positive with a negative. Mood dipping happens if I haven't had a good day. I tell myself I have done the best I could with the situation or I go back to apologise or pray about the situation if I feel I have really messed up.
    Music really improves my mood so I go to choir twice a week sometimes three times. It is a workout for voice and mind. I think that my brain is rewired or un
    scrambled by the music.
    Sometimes I feel 'panicky' This can happen at any time. Usually I can control it by sitting quietly and deep breathing. Usually this works. If it goes into a full blown panic then I would probably remove myself from the situation. This is very rare and I would probably not let my thoughts get to this stage.
    No-body can foresee life events like the death of someone dear. My Father died four and a half years ago and I thought that this would 'unhinge me' but I coped and was fine about it. I can still hear him talking to me usually when I am cooking as he loved his food. He had funny words for food such as 'grun' food- graveny - Also taters - cold. Probably a touch of the East End.
    I am very fortunate that I have a husband - away a lot and also a very supportive GP and people at Church. I also have a lovely best friend.
    These strategies do not always stop us getting ill. I can be aware of the warning signs and still become ill. I have become ill being on my meds although not on this cocktail. In the past I have thought that if this or that happened then I wouldn't become ill again. Sadly that is no guarantee. I have felt so low that I have wanted to die. I have also felt that I was rotting inside. I also felt that I was becoming invisible. All that is thankfully behind me now.
    Everyday has to be a new beginning. It isn't a rehearsal but I do go over there things that I know will heal me and make me well. More to follow I'm sure.
    Last edited by ElizabethJane1; 15-01-16 at 08:53 PM.

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    Not "nagging" really... Suzi's Avatar
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    That's a great post! So lovely to see you posting here!
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    That's such a lovely post So full of positivity and hope. I like the idea of music unscrambling the mind

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    Fantastic post, Elizabeth. That really made me beam
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    Lovely to hear that you are getting through it.
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    Thank you. I believe that recovery from depressive illness is one day at a time and when we are really il one hour at a time. I seem to be developing a sore throat so I'm having raw ginger, manuka honey and lemon. I had a really unsettled night last night although I have felt fine all day. I had my 'nightmare/nighterror. It always follows the same theme that I have died or I am dying. This one was quite clever in that I thought I was going to crash my car and I knew I had to jump clear. I did but I landed out of my bed and beside the bedroom door. I was very shaky and it took time to recover. The thing was I had only been asleep for one hour. It always seems to get me. I desperately want to live but obviously so afraid of dying. Sorry folks but my recovery seems to be overcoming this one. It is annoying the sleep walking. I always lock my door if I go away and try to request a ground floor room.

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    Oh, I thought you meant you were dreaming you had landed out of bed, but you mean for real? How long have you been sleepwalking for?

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    Rose I have been sleep walking since I was a child. I also talk and grind my teeth. I think I might have to have a hypnosis session.

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    Hypnosis Therapy is brilliant, I think.

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    Great post Elizabeth so full of positives, I too find classical music a great help, partially because it's a distraction but it also seems to affect my emotions and makes me feel more human again.
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