Why can't you accept this diagnosis?
Why can't you accept this diagnosis?
Do a little of something that makes you happy every day!
It's because I want to be like the majority of people, but every time remember of certain restrictions related to my illness. Mentally speaking, I've got it, but not by my soul.
Hunni, trust me. The sooner you accept it, and work with it the easier it will be. I know how hard it can be, but sweetheart it is an important step...
Do a little of something that makes you happy every day!
selena (03-08-15)
Yes, I really want to accept this.
But I think I'm going insane with all these sudden fluctuations: headaches, fast growing of facial hair ( on my right side of chin) and plucking it again and again, and now sensation of lump in the throat and back of tongue, i'm really afraid of having a thyroid nodule or something worse. My doc says I still have nothing to worry, it's just result of hormonal fluctuations as things have been positive, but I don't get the cause of this turn.
I've also started to think that my mother deserved a better daughter, me being too self-centered and when we're together the only thing to discuss is my illness. I'm her only daughter and in a bad health, now I think that people should better have at least two children, in case one is ill or something the other could succeed, just such a failure mood.
You aren't a failure and I don't think your Mother would ever say or think that at all about you. I am sure that you are perfect to her whether you have illness or not.
Sweetheart you need to listen to your GP, it sounds like you are worrying yourself silly over something that may never happen!
Do a little of something that makes you happy every day!
selena (03-08-15)
You're right, it's not her feeling, it's just mine.
Maybe you should tell her that's how you are feeling?
Do a little of something that makes you happy every day!
I told her, she is not upset and even proud of my achievements, but she is sad because of everything that happened to me.
Can you do the three positives for every day? I keep a diary and I try to include 3 positives about me, although some times its difficult.
Sometimes my positives may be that I showered, I took my medication, and I didn't stay up too late!
Other days if I had done housework, gone for a swim or did something with Aisling, then the positives are easy to write.
It is quite difficult to do on some days but it is so worthwhile, and on very difficult days, you can look back on your previous days and say things are not as bad as I thought.
selena (03-08-15)
magie06, thank you for suggestion, I think I'll try doing this way.
When I was on a short trip abroad, I kept diary and it helped.