Time Passing By and Fear of Failure *Triggers*

[Suzi]

You need to talk to them or you could put in a bill for her to pay you the extra hours you work too! lol

[selena]

I'm actually very nervous and hope to get safe until Christmas. My boss had some pretentions to me again and I'm beginning to be afraid of getting publicly offended by her, as I'm too fragile to cope with everything in presence of other people.

I want to keep my emotional mood safe so I've decided not to come this week's working reunion.

I've had a big translation to do, she has given other work and also my duties of manager, so I can't cope with 40 pages in two weeks. I have to translate 14 more pages, I'll get anxious if she hurries me, I get client's need but I've told her sincerely that I can't cope with everything by myself.

[rose]

Did you say to her 'This is too much work'?

[selena]

Yes, she said that she gets but I should anyway hurry up.

[selena]

What else? Today has been to church and put candle for everyone. Your words have given to me a great support.

It was hard for me to get out because I was not in the mood, but I did it.

[Paula]

Well done, lovely

[Suzi]

You're doing brilliantly lovely...

[selena]

Thanks, Suzi, but God help me to resist, I can't anymore!

[selena]

I'm feeling so lonely and low, nobody even cares how I'm feeling...but that's just life, sometimes people around us can be indifferent ( not simply busy).

When I see slender women without being on diet, I just wonder how such perfect methabolism can exist.

And, yes, Suzy, your words about trying to accept have been really helping me...

Feeling Christmas spirit and hope my work will be accepted like previous ones...

I want to communicate on skype with somebody there, but can't really trust anyone.

[Paula]

I care