Time Passing By and Fear of Failure *Triggers*

[selena]

And I am saddened by the fact that my work hasn't been paid yet, at least I didn't give all piece of translation, I was paid just for the first 25 pages. It was literary translation and the woman ( apparently author) seemed to me strange, and I should have thought better before taking it. But I enjoy this kind of work and wanted to put it on my cv, unfortunately no news since May...

She apologized saying that their company is out of money now.

I really enjoyed translating her piece of work and building a new universe in a different language, I even noticed some historical mistakes and rewrote text in the right variant.
It's historical love romance with mystery elements and happy end. Whilst I don't agree with everything in the story, the heroine becomes close to me, although it may sound strange.

[Suzi]

That isn't good of that company, but maybe you could still put it on your CV?

[selena]

That isn't good of that company, but maybe you could still put it on your CV?

I could put it on my CV, but the potential clients could have access only to first pages and I am supposed to ask for agreement.

[Suzi]

Could you ask for that agreement?

[selena]

Could you ask for that agreement?

Yes, but I doubt I will receive permission, maybe some pages. But you are right, it's better to ask anyway.

[Suzi]

Always an idea...

[selena]

Sometimes the black thoughts occur to my mind, but I try to move them out...

Apparently nothing new, but once again my pcos symptoms have got milder and my doc can see progress. She insists that I should be more patient.

It's strange but after severe symptoms have gone away, I've begun thinking about how wonderful it will be if I ever become mother, especially of a daughter...

[Paula]

I don't think that's strange, lovely. I have friends with PCOS who have kids, and my cousin had endometriosis so severe she was told there was no way shed ever conceive - her daughter is now 14 years old

[Suzi]

Certainly not strange lovely..

[selena]

Now I'm starting to find a job and move on, and it's not easy.

I try to forget about my last work and it's stupid but I'm still feeling connected to the heroine of the romance I translated.

And maggie's advice was really helpful, I try to write 3 positives every day.