Time Passing By and Fear of Failure *Triggers*

[selena]

Like consequence of tonsillitis. Well, in a month I will be checked again.

I feels so lost. Professionally it's more or less ok, but I suffer because of loneliness and because of my depressive mood, I'm feeling like I'm completely unable to change something.

I have plans, but I cannot get over some things.

I don't know what I could have done without your support.

[selena]

If I can't cope with depression, I think I'll see specialist despite my mum's protests. I fight but not everything is in my power.

[rose]

You don't currently receive any treatment for depression and anxiety? I thought you did!

[selena]

No, it was many years ago, basically nitrozepam.

Here unfortunately there is no normal medical care provided.

[Jaquaia]

I thought you did too! No wonder you're struggling! Can you ask your gp about taking an antidepressant?

[bluerose]

I think 35 is about the age you can safely have children generally speaking. Have you considered fostering or adoption or getting a pet? It is better to have a partner you want to be with than be stuck with you don't. want.Keep trying and don't give up and then at least you have a chance. At least your medication is working. It's horrible to be hysterical . Have you tried ASMR videos on YouTube? I find these quite relaxing or try a crossword. Even if you get a partner, it is no guarantee they will look after you in old age. There will be someone to look after you. I thought I was alone but I'm now in touch with the Community Mental Health Team and have found them very helpful. I'm in Britain. I don't know if you have something similar in your country but you could ask around. Maybe try a medication to calm you down when you get hysterical.When I worry about the future I try to live one hour at a time and use it as constructively as possible.

[selena]

No, I haven't yet, as for adopting a pet - yes, I 've thought, especially after my kitty passed away some months ago.

Videos seem to be a good idea, I'll have a look.

[Paula]

I've had an appointment with ENT specialist today. He said things got much better, he prescribed me vitamin tablets that I'm supposed to take in a two week period. They are rather expensive, but if doc prescribed ... He saw my anxiety and I told me that I don't have to worry about this, there are no signs pointing at tumours etc. I think I should trust him. As my condition can be strengthened by vulnerability and much stress at work. I think I should trust him.

And in a month the next appointment.

Good, again you've been told the lumps are related to pharyngitis and hormones, it's not cancer. You should trust the dr - as several Drs have said the same thing. So please, please stop worrying about this.

And please see a dr about your MH. Have you had a formal diagnosis or review recently?

[selena]

Unfortunately no.

[Jaquaia]

No to a formal diagnosis or a review?