I think I can relate to people easily, I can 'see' them but I feel they cannot 'see' me and my true essence. I have been to a lot of meetup groups but don't feel I really 'connect' with anyone. I'll have a nice time interacting with their personas but feel exhausted after 2-3 hours and want to be alone.

I found with the London groups that people just seemed to use each other for those few hours. I'd get asked for my number but then I'd never hear from them again. People just seem to be happy with many superficial acquaintances rather than pursuing meaningful friendships. It seems to be a cultural or generational thing. I got fed up of it. I used to be happy 'masturdating' (constantly going on dates with myself) but even that begins to suck after a while.