Well done for talking to her
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Well done for talking to her
I'm really proud of you for talking to her and telling her how things are. That's really important.
Slept for 2 full hours this afternoon. Was lovely.
Epic self care! :)
The black cloud is definitely lifting. I am sleeping so much better and I know that has a major influence on my mood.
The more sleep I get, the more I want and the more relaxed I feel. After being so chronically sleep-deprived for so many years, I'm enjoying the feeling of waking up in the morning and stretching and just feeling relaxed. My psychologist put it very well on Monday when she said, " you are not a manic zombie any more. You dont feel the need to be doing doing doing all the time just to keep going, your body is learning that it can actually relax and allow you to relax."
I feel a more positive and able to enjoy things rather than just do them to be busy. I feel connected to A and the thought of 'tomorrow ' no longer fills me with fear and dread. I know I still have a long road to travel but I am willing to travel it. I can say at this moment and for the past few days, I no longer want to end my life, I feel like there is a way through and I am going to make it.
Thank you all for helping me reach this point. I cant remember the last time I felt a bit of hope like this.
That is an absolutely epic post!!!
These are the days to savour. Remember this feeling.
That post has made me cry! I'm so happy for you! That's a post to print out and stick it to every surface you can to keep reminding yourself... You are amazing. A total warrior.
Oh! That’s amazing! I’m in bits :)
Aw thanks guys. It is A's birthday today, a big one so we are celebrating. My daughter and I had great fun decorating a cake for him. I've never tackled fondant icing before but we are very proud of it. So today is all about the big guy and the wonderfulness that is him. Both boys are back to work so we are doing a bit of running about again but I am still maintaining a relaxed outlook.