This is not happening trigger warning sh/su

Hello Everyone ( trigger warning self harm/ sucide)
My family ( My mum and Nan)are concerned about my eating and believe i have lost much weight. Today i went on a trip to brighton and on the train journey i was struggling to stand . Ever since i fainted on a family holiday they have been more watchful of my eating. I hace dont have a weight problem and love my body. My family are big see.
My mum is trying to book gp appointment.
If i end up getting a gp appointment my depression diagnois will come out.
This not happening.
I cant tell my family about my depression . They are going to be mad.
Its all over.
My family financailly support me but emotionally they dont. If i cry or break down i get no sympathy.
Talking about my feelings just ends up in nothing but an explosive argument
I am so terrified.
When i was youngrr and i used to self harm. My mum covered up the whole thing. She screamed at me saying social services will get involved. I was made to feel gulity for havong a mental health issues.
My mum told me to hide my scars andrefused any medocal health.
I rather be dead than my family find out my diagnosis.
Andrea

If your family negatively reacted to your diagnois how did you cope.
Currentluly i feel like sucide is the only way out of this
I cant do this anymore

You need to stop and take a deep breath. Your doctor cannot tell your mum anything without your permission

Jaquaia i am scared what if they bring up my diagnois and try and connect with my weight loss.

You don't have to take your mum in with you, you don't even have to go if you don't want to.

If you are worried about it then why not go to your Dr's appointment alone? Why do you have to take her with you? They can't talk about your medical issues without your consent anyway...