Not a typical person with depression *SU SH TRIGS
Hello Everybody
My name is Andrea and i was diagnosed with moderate depression in janaury 2019. Last year i was depressed after my birthday and i considsred sucide becauase i was scared of growing up and i was terrifed of the future . I still am and i would love to die young .
These feelings went on for months. I make plans to kill myslef but cant go through with them.
I used to cut myself in my teens
I feel like i am too functional to have depression. I am not sad all the time
I do have feelings of worthlessness and wanting to die and feeling like a failure and self dobut but i can still do things but i have work much harder .
Throuhout my final year of univeristy i thought of killing mysrlf and i would break down crying in public but i still managed to hand in assessments and get good grades.
I graduated with a 2.1 degree in law .
I will have days in which i am enjoying life and dont want to die but i wil be depressed again.
No one in my family have mental illbess and never had a hard life .
This is so humilating
One the outside people see me as intelligent and pretty but inside i want to die and constantly doubt myself . If you tell me i am pretty or clever i dont believe it at all.
My parents are african and believw only white people get depression. My nan says depression does not exist in africa so why does the west have it
Has anyone experienced this?
Plz share your stories
I feel so alone that my dspression is not the same as other people
Embrassed about my diagnois
Hello
I was diagnosed with moderate depression in January 2019 and struggling to access therapy on the NHS.
I am embrassed about my diagnosis.
I never had a hard life. I am a black female
Everyone in my family have more serious problems and out of all of them i get it .
African parents donf recognise depression so talking to my family is not an option.
My famiky think only white people have depression and this does not exist in african nations.
My family laugh at people with mental illnesss.
I hate being a black woman with depression its so embrassing. I wish i was a white woman with depression becsuse a least depression is recognised in the white community
My family have suppprted me and i end up with this diagnois.
One of my friends who are black . Told me my condition is not real.
On the outside people see me as intelligent and pretty but i dont.
Currently i am fine but my depression will come back as i have not had treatment
My depression came out of nowhere. I woke up one morning on my 21st birthday feeling like my life was one big failure and these feelings dragged on for months . As the months went on these feelings got worse. I would brrak down crying and i lost all my confidence.
How do you deal with depression if not got a hard life?
Can you be successful with depression like have a career?
Have you ever had depression which appeared out of nowhere.
What exactly is moderate depression?
I am so alone . I am dealing with this on my own because telling my family will make it a million times worse.