*** might be triggers ***
Ok, I will try.
I have been thinking of overeating again. I can not get it out of my mind. The thing is that i am so worried I might develop bulimia. So now I am on the couch thinking I need food, I need food. But thats not all. Then I think I am a bad person because of it. So I do not deserve to watch netflix. Or do anything fun. Thats only for good people. This makes it worse and worse. Then somebody laught at my spelling earlier on. It was English and I made a mistake. So I feel horrible about that. I can not get things right today. Maybe I need more lessons. I can do better. So this leaves me spinning and spinning until I hurt myself. Or overeat and purge. Or wait till bedtime and sleep. The last thing is almost the worst one because there is no release that way.
Sorry all, i did try to keep it light and easy.