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I walk Talia when I can. Like I said, where I live sends my anxiety through the roof and I'm constantly looking over my shoulder when I'm out. No idea what meetup or spice are. Never heard of them. Different? Like what? Going places on my own places me on the edge of panic. I get very paranoid and very agitated and anxious and I spend the next few days exhausted. So it's trying to find a balance between loneliness or being terrified. At the moment, loneliness is the lesser of 2 evils.
My mum says she's trying to have a joke with me and I'm being oversensitive.
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Meetup - https://www.meetup.com/
Spice - http://www.spiceuk.com/home?handshak...e#.WqjSj2hl_rc
They are both ways of meeting up with people who have similar interests etc.
Have you spoken to your GP about the anxiety and panic you have about going out?
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Spice seems to be more York/Leeds/Sheffield way. There isn't a lot on meetup but I'll have a look at what there is.
J has just left. I have strict orders to take it easy with studying. And to make sure I drink. He also made sure I've eaten. He's encouraged me to email my tutor and let him know how much I'm struggling at the moment too. My tutor has been awesome and given me an extension until Monday.
I'm not used to being looked after. I'm not used to being held while I cry or having my feelings put first. I'm not used to having my fears listened to and being reassured freely and with no resentment. I'm not used to childish behaviour purely because it makes me laugh so hard my ribs hurt, purely because he wants to see me laugh and smile. Is this what it's meant to be like?
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What about something like a book club?
Glad you've contacted your tutor. You know that this isn't something that they won't have come across before.
Yes, that's exactly what it's meant to be like.
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I've seen one book club on there so will look. I know, still didn't stop the panic though.
So, so tired now.
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Yes, yes, yes that’s what it’s like!
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Tired is expected after a day of emotion and stress.
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Am I just being a tit? Booking a hotel for my mates wedding felt far more stressful then it needed to be
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No, those things that should be straight forward are usually the things that trip me up too
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Oh dear God no, things like that are manically difficult for me too..