Time Passing By and Fear of Failure *Triggers*

Sweetheart why does your weight bother you so much?
Is there any area of your life where you are happy?

Because I can't fix it myself regardless any efforts and because of standards of beauty imposed on tv and other media. I've lost some weight since last year but I wish I had lost more.

Yes, I feel a kind of happiness in process of working, travelling, hobbies, I don't really know, but these moments vanish soon.

Lovely, I assume you've spoken to your dr? What about diet and exercise?

Yes, a little.

I'm on low-carb diet and exercising or going for a walk.

I think you can change things so you are happier and I wonder if you are happier whether you'll find it easier to lose weight? Does that make sense?

Yes, I'll try to take these changes with more ease.

It's not easy, nothing worthwhile is... but you can do it.

Are you having any kind of talking therapy? It sounds like you could do with some help with your self esteem. I totally understand the feelings surrounding weight issues. I've put on about 3 stone since I turned 40 (I'm 48 now) and have fluctuated between losing rapidly on stupid diets and regaining twice as quickly plus adding more on. I hung out with a really fashionable set in London in my 30s and was very slim but I had a much more energetic job and very active social life. I'm virtually a recluse now, rarely seeing anyone other than my close friend. I'm on a waiting list for therapy, it's about 3 months away and I'm impatient to start it but my psychiatrist thinks I'm too unwell to start it now so I have to be patient!

If you don't have access to therapy, there are lots of self-help materials available online for self esteem and empowerment designed specifically for women. Although it does seem that you may need something that centres around your condition. You said that you'd joined a Facebook group for PCOS, have you thought about outside of Facebook where you don't have to use your real name? I'm sure you'd benefit from talking to other women with your condition.

Not exactly, I've had a few sessions with psychologist, but that's not so often as it required in my condition. I am also a kind of recluse, and it's not because others avoiding me, it's because of me avoiding others who can hurt my feelings not knowing details of my current condition.

I've thought, offline meeting with other women experiencing the same difficulties would be a great benefit for me, but such a suggestion hasn't been made so far.

Aw sweetheart, have you found any support groups near you?