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Yeah it was me being a dick last night and typing the password incorrectly. Feel incredibly stupid now but I’ve got copies of the stuff I wanted so it’s all sorted now. Just need to finish my letter and send it off. I think I’ve covered everything and then I think of something else I need to add. It’s so hard trying to break your life down to tell them how things are without all the things I was able to put into place to make it easier which is the exact reason I got the award in the first place. It’s like, there you go, have some money to improve your life and then ok that worked let’s take it all away from you again and watch you fall apart.
I know I’m unraveling and I’m trying so hard to keep it together. There are so many little mistakes happening, things that on their own is nothing major but when you put them all together it’s clear that I’m not coping as well as I could be.
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We've all done it, don't beat yourself up about it. In fact I do it regularly through the day/week.... If you keep adding bits, just print those off and show them how things work in your head atm...
Tell them that you feel you're unravelling, tell them the mistakes and show them how things really are...
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As Suzi says, they need to know how this is impacting you....
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I’ve thrown all 27 pages of evidence into the envelope and sent it. I know they will just ignore it anyway and I could be adding things I think of for another week or more. The moment I popped it the postbox I thought of something else. By going into detail now it just means when I do get to the appeal court they will be able to view the information and see that the decision was very wrong. I was told by the assessor at the start that she didn’t have all of the additional information and had to ask me for details of my meds (I’d sent a prescription list) and according to DIAL she shouldn’t have continued without all the information. Just gotta wait to be turned down which hopefully won’t take too long so I can start the appeal process. I have to admit as horrible as this whole process is, it’s a little easier having gone through this process already with ESA in 2017/18 because I know what to expect.
I actually feel quite accomplished having tackled the letter by myself. Yes it took me 3 days, a lot of mess and stress and probably missing a lot of stuff but I did it without a complete meltdown.
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You should feel accomplished! It's a difficult thing you've done!
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Damn right. Its something to be proud about!!
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Well done you. I certainly would be in a mess tackling it.
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Oh trust me SM, it’s not been easy and I may have taken Suzi’s lead, if she hadn’t written something first so I had something to work from I probably wouldn’t have known where to start.
Have spent most of the afternoon sleeping. Woke up just after 6pm had dinner, and now back in bed again watching football. I could quite happily go straight back to sleep again. I’m frazzled.
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I'm not surprised you're frazzled, you've been dealing with a lot of stuff and emotions.. I'm proud of you.
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Thought I would share this cos I know it might be from an ADHD page but this is a genuine struggle for many people with mental ill health. This is a huge problem for me and I can’t tell you how many times I have found myself sat in the middle of a room in tears because I’m so overwhelmed, or just retreated to bed cos everything is just too much for me to deal with and I have to take myself away from it all.
http://adhd-alien.com/2019/07/16/executive-dysfunction/